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Father
I never knew my father.
As a child I assembled his image from fuzzy gray
snapshots with dog-eared corners.
For me he'd forever be twenty-six. Handsome, with
a square jaw and kind eyes. I knew with a certainty I carried from
childhood that someday I'd meet him. He'd look at me and everything
would finally make sense.
"You're just like your father," my mother
would say, and I'd feel him move somewhere inside me.
One day as I paged through a magazine I saw a man
whose name seemed familiar. My father's friend. This man had known
my father. He'd looked into my father's eyes; heard my father's
voice; perhaps heard my father's hopes and fears for the child my
mother carried.
The man in the picture was so much older than the
ghost I called my father.
And suddenly I knew it.
My father would never know he'd had a daughter. Never
know the girl who loved to read and walk in the woods and hear the
songs of birds.
Never know the girl who dreamed each night of being
rescued.
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