February 28, 2006
Deep journaling

February 26, 2006
My responses to Gretchen Fricke's responses to my journal entry from February 4, 2006

February 24, 2006
Responding to Ellie Epp's notes from "Spirit as Body Workshops"

February 23, 2006
I finally transcribe my journal entry from my night alone in the woods, or why am I naked and pissed off in the woods alone?

February 22, 2006
A new place to study and think

February 20, 2006
How frustration feels, or why I don't want to design websites anymore

February 17, 2006
Notes written while listening to live music at Ten West in Mansfield

February 16, 2006
Walking in the woods, Twiggy, the tyranny of culture, and why I hate Justin de Villeneuve

February 11, 2006
The road to poetry

February 10, 2006 From an email to Ellie

February 8, 2006
Love and honesty

February 4, 2006 Back from Goddard, and what a head feels like after going through a Mixmaster

February 20, 2006
How frustration feels, or why I don't want to design websites anymore

Right after I hung up with Bill's answering machine, I figured out the problem with this website that I've been wrestling with for days. I feel like I'm freed from tyranny! This kind of troubleshooting is non-creative, and it makes me gnash my teeth, feeling stupid, and not being able to create! Or at least read. I've wasted days on this, and I know how to build websites. What about people who don't?

I'm having a hard time staying disciplined with my time. And maybe the key is to work while on the phone, which is what I did with last night, but is it rude to run water and miss whole sentences while someone's talking to me? I thinkpo it is.

God, my body. It still feels tense from all this squinting at code, but now I'm finally FREE!!! Well, and I learned a thing or two, and I guess that's good. But now my body feels sort of quakey and loose. Tingly with the same feeling I'll bet gladiators experience when they overcome the lion.

What else? Oh, just that I'm frustrated finding info about energy. I can only find anything voluminous on really lame new-agey websites, or in books whose covers include sparkling gemstones and unicorns and shit. I mean, they don't exactly inspire confidence in their contents. IS IT ALL BULLSHIT? Because the medical literature ignores it, and I can't find anything about it in Goddard's article database.