March 30, 2006
The bowl

March 29, 2006
Disparate subjects

March 27, 2006
A needy, ragged woman

March 22, 2006
God, body, Tony Hoagland, carnival, dissociation and postmodern poetry

March 20, 2006
Emailing Ellie

March 13, 2006
Body Worlds

March 12, 2006
Anna, and Marty's ball

March 11, 2006
the lost innocence of my youth and the beautiful life I've created

March 10, 2006
Another scary bout of journaling to find the truth

March 9, 2006
Excerpts from an email correspondence with Ellie Epp

March 7, 2006
iron and wine

March 5, 2006
finding chakras

March 3, 2006
Muses

March 1, 2006
Mansfield, PA - Nurturing and feeling

 

 

 

March 13, 2006
Body Worlds

Bill and I went to see Body Worlds in Philadelphia this weekend. Bill's a massage therapist, and he thought I'd like it, given what I'm studying.

It was intense, and I learned a lot about the body. Previously, my knowledge of the body was nil. If I thought about it at all, I saw it as a bag of skin over a vague collection of organs and structural parts.

There weren't any visual gross outs, which I feared, but you definitely have to wrap your mind around the moral gross-out factor. This woman died eight months pregnant, and her provacative pose seemed incongruous with the baby showing in her womb.

But in the end I think the show's educational appeal outweighs it's questionable taste. And taste is an offshoot of our squeamish, puritanical culture, which abhors death. A few weeks ago a woman dropped 23 stories from the building where my friend Christian lives. He stumbled onto the scene and made himself look at her body for half an hour, until the police and EMT's made him leave. He said he looked because he's a writer, and also because our society tries to pretend death doesn't exist. He's right about that. We hide bodies in Iraq, send people to die alone in nursing homes, and for funerals, we treat dead bodies as if they're still alive.

Body Worlds
I saw lots of dead bodies, and lots of penises. Lots of black lungs diseased from smoking. And the female sexual organs were disappointing. I always imagined fallopian tubes and ovaries as lovely flowers, but these were barely noticeable shrunken little husks.

The organs were okay, but I really loved the body's structure - bones, muscles, nerves. I didn't realize how complicated muscles are. They're layered, and they overlap and interweave.